guilty as charged

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i did it. i killed him 

not really

i didnt kill anyone. i mean how could i? 

i would never

i broke a poor boy's heart. i crushed his dreams 

why? 

a sacrifice had to be made

it breaks my heart to watch this poor boy cry because he thought he would do better

he thought he was strong, smart, and likeable

i unfortunately had to prove him wrong

there was no reason to

i killed him. i did it




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